fud 4 thot

if you can be angry..
so can I
if you can abuse...
so can I
if you can be stupid, mean, irritating and annoying..
so can I

But Whats The Use??
Lets Be Happy!!
Lets Be Friends

if you can be a sweetheart..
so can I

gudbye!!

This concept is taken from my dear friend Runcils blog - Goodbye. I am really thankful to him for letting me redo his post in the way i wanted to..

“I want a breakup..” I read the sms on my cell and went to sleep again.. I mean c’mon yaar!! What is anyone expected to do if they get a sms at 3 am ???

yeah this sms was serious I know… that’s why when I woke up at 11 in the morning 1^st thing I did after having a bath and tasting 3 chapattis with jam and milk, is I called her…

“WhatTheFuck you think of urself!! Is this the time to call???”

“huh? ur busy?”

“fuck u … I wanna meet u as soon as possible”

“but I thought u wanna breakup??”

“I do, you jerk!.. and thats why I wanna meet you”

“huh? …”

"It's not working, Charlie," she said, in a serious tone, "you know it too."

"There's nothing that can't be repaired, Cecilia," I protested, "there's still time. We can convince your parents." I said applying jam onto another chapatti

“oh shutup !! keep your stories to urself… its just not helping !! I wanna see u in the cemetery at 2.. I thought we could meet in the morning ... but u just keep eating your jam-bread” ….

“chapatti!!…. Jam-chapatti” I corrected

“fuck u” came the reply! As she disconnected

……… beep.. beep…

Now the very idea of meeting in the cemetery is scary … just imagine… in front of thousand graves, gravestones and dead people under them, today I was going to beakup with my girlfriend… hmmmm ok its not for the faint hearted... young children and senior citizens please switch to reading other blogs!

Kuuuuuuuuuuunnnnnkkkkkkk---krrrrrrrr----kuuuunnnnk !! The cemetery gate opened … making this typical haunted noise… I looked around if I could spot any ghosts or cecilia who looked like them … may be I could convince her from outside the gate ...but then Runcil had positioned her at the end of the cemetery.. so lets go there!!

The cemetery was silent - the kind of silence that glides over your skin and pierces you, making you want to break its steely grasp - a silence to be afraid of; the silence before the storm. I somehow managed to walk the distance … I was just hoping no one comes and touches me from behind,.. Id die on the spot … my heart was beating fast .. I just wanted to get out of this spooky place…

Cecilia was sitting on a bench, rather uneasily, waiting for me, when I reached the place. She had decided that we would meet here for the last time. I still couldn't understand. A cemetery? I mean what happened to all those KFC’s and Poptates where she made me spend like I was a millionaire!!

The breeze blew the leaves that crowded my path marking for me a clear road to Cecilia. I walked with fast steps towards her. She stood up, while I hurried to tell her to continue sitting (fearing she might slap me 1^st only). "No need," she replied in a cold tone, "we came in through this end of the cemetery, we can walk to the other end. And talk too."

She wore a black mini with a white top. Contrasting colors - and I guess even more ironic for the occasion although it suited the location. The usual kohl under her eyes was missing today. Her long flowing hair was restricted to a bun. Somehow id started feeling it was my funeral!

We walked with slow, perhaps unsteady steps. There were thousands of gravestones around us. Some were sparkling white, few were freshly dug and the soil was uneven. Most were greying due to neglect. Some of the crosses had fallen apart, the angel's wings had come off. These untouched graves provided the famished atmosphere for us to talk in.

"So, should we get on with our talk?" I asked, knowing anyway what was to come.
"It's all over, Charlie," she said, looking away from me
"don’t say that yaar.. we can still convince your parents… I’ll talk to them"
"You say this after knowing my parents. I don't know if that's arrogance or ignorance."
" It's just plain hope."
"Or living in denial," she retorted. “you know how much they hate you”

“oh for god sake Cecilia! You getting pregnant was not only my fault ok…you also….”

“jude was always cautious”

“what the fuck!!”

“i.. I mea.. I mean… my parents will not approve for us Charlie … they want me to marry jude..”

That swift tongue!

We continued walking. I saw a gravestone that bore the deathdate April 7, 1985 - my birthdate.

"So, you want me to forget you? Just like that? After all this time?" I asked. I was on the verge of pouring all my anger on her.
"See Charlie," she said hesitatingly, "I know it's difficult, but..."
I stood rooted to where I was, ""Difficult? It's not only difficult. You think it's very easy to forget that we went around, kissed, shared the same bed, sometimes at your place and sometimes at mine…sometimes at some NRI friends place of yours… so many beds we shared ! It may be easy for you, but not for me."
I was shouting now and my voice echoed because of the stillness around. A few mourners at a nearby grave had stopped the rosary and were looking at us. 'Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us.'

Cecilia shrieked, "Don't you raise your voice at me, Charlie. Its soo embarrassing talking about how many beds we shared… these mourners will think we are getting horny in the cemetery”

"You've given me reason to do so. Cant you just understand I love you and wanna be with you??”

She stayed quiet. I became aware of the breeze blowing the weightless, dead leave around. I heard the whispers of the mourners praying again. Some still looking at us suspiciously as if they had caught us makingout..I heard myself breathing heavily. I heard sniffles of despair.

She looked at me, straight into my eyes, perhaps for the first time that day.

"I know what I am doing to you is unfair, but life is unfair. It has been unfair to me too. You don't have to listen to the abuse I receive everyday, you don't have to feel the pain I feel everyday. It's the cycle of life Charlie, we just pass on the unfairness that we have received to someone else. And in time everything gets alright. You too will be fine, Charlie… probably after you pass this unfairness to someone else”

"But," I protested, "the love we shared was..." I was at a loss for words. …Was our love sexy? .. pleasurable?? I was even beginning to doubt whether it was love.
"The love we shared," she whispered, "was good while it lasted. It's over from my side now. I think you should get on too. There's a time and season for everything, right? You used to sing that. Our's has just passed."

We had not moved since we had last stopped. Cecilia felt her phone vibrating in the pocket and answered it…at once I realized I should too put my phone on the silent mode.. after all it does not look good to have a muni badnaam hui ringtone in the cemetery na??

"I'm going back from here. I have to meet Jude…..Take care of yourself. I'll meet you perhaps to give you the invitation card. I'm sad we couldn't finish our little walk"

“but what about this little talk??”

I looked at her. She was looking in the other direction. Her voice was shaking. Why couldn't she say it looking at me?

"Goodbye Charlie."

"Wait Cecilia," I quivered. Trying to strengthen my voice, I said, "I want one question answered."
"Okay, just one question. What is it?" she asked impatiently, still not looking at me.
"Why here? Why the cemetery?"

The still air blew furiously now. The leaves flew around, some into our faces.
Cecilia turned around, and for the last time faced me. Her eyes were red.

"because Jude’s place is nearby”

And then she turned around and walked away, never to return again.

The mourners were at the end of their rosary, signing themselves.

emotional atyachar

The following is a true story
Written as told by the victim himself :) !!trust me this was fun!!

2 days ago this female I hardly knew proposed me.. saying she loves me and she thinks I can take care of her… she was on my facebook account… we hardly spoke before that day … I mean we used to but just a formal hi- hello… “wassup!” … “oh u had lunch ??.. wow!! :)” u know…someone ud send a ‘brb’ after two lines and never take the trouble of returning to that chat again … hmmm she is very beautiful, single (that’s the reason probably why I send her a frnd req even though we didn’t have any mutual frnds), and owned a salon in the city. I always thought of going ahead with my chat with her … but somehow it never happened…
But that day when all of a sudden she mailed me her no. and then after few sms’s actually proposed me.. I could not stop myself from saying a yes… we chatted through sms till 3 am that day .. and finally she asked if she could call me… I was completely into this now… lost in whatever she was saying… I replied – “ofcourse u can call me anytime love…I wanna hear u too” … We talked for a while and then continued texting each other again…. till finally I fell asleep..

In the morning I was too sleepy to wakeup for work… but the excitement I witnessed the previous night was enough to get me on my toes … I did everything I usually did before going to work… yeah even that unimportant thing called breakfast… and sms’d her as soon as I was out of my house …on my way to work…

However this time the reply came after 2 hrs… I knew the late night chats had taken a toll on her and she naturally must have been too sleepy to even look at her mobile…we however carried on our sms chat throughout that afternoon … her replies were coming in late… whenever I asked her about it.. she sent me another lovey-dovey msg and changed the topic… but as I further insisted to know the reason, she said shes going to the doc as she was suffering from back pain..
In the evening I msged her couple of times but no reply! … Finally all worried .. I called her .. she picked up… the noise around her told me she was in a rick… and she confirmed it by saying she was returning home… I was almost finished with inquiring about her health and was about the hangup when I heard a guy’s voice… no sooner I asked her if she was with someone; she hungup!! … after that I tried calling many times.. but she never attended the call ..

Calls, messages… till night !!! I kept on decreasing my balance.. but there was no reply… finally late at night she called up saying .. she was with her cousin bro (who accompanied her to the doc) and their bike met with an accident (contradicting herself that she was in the rick) … she told me how her knee was hurt and gained all the awwwwwwwwwww’s from me, Told me how much she loved and missed me… and wished me sweet good night…


That was the last time she replied to me… after that she has not answered to even one of my messages nor attended any of my calls… she keeps disconnecting my calls… or leaves them unanswered .. no reply to any of my messages (atleast 100’s of them)…. Most of the time her phone is engaged… and when it is not she disconnects it or leaves it unanswered …

I donno what to do…. Is she cheating on me?.. Was she just playing with me… have I done something wrong?? .,, how do I find out if she has someone else??? What should I do now?.. please help !!!



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Lol :).. My friend… firstly this is not the ‘ASKTHESEXPERT’ column of the Mumbai Mirror nor I am Dr. Mahinder Watsa , nor you’r discussing sex .. donno why have you asked me to post this here.. I mean …publicity? Like this? ... lol [ok may be the readers will have a few solutions]

Secondly I wanna know the name of that chick (which you promised to tell me if I post this) wanna check if I have her in my friend list too :P (prevention is better than cure)

Now your saying she just proposed you? ... just? and knowing you very well .. why would any girl do that in the first place!! .. infact why would anyone do that !! ??! ;… and you just said yes to her? .. just ? :) ...moreover, you just started liking her all of a sudden?? Just? See this is what happens when people without thinking just do anything…
Now do one thing just forget her.. lol :)

(Readers your suggestions are welcome)

hungry and angry

Yeah its 4:20 and I am stuck here in the train.. huh ?.. arey Mumbai rains remember? … (in half an hour everything gets flooded) … left office at 2:55 to be precise .. yes Saturday afternoon – half day at office and I had lots of plans… I thought I’ll reach home by 4.. then eat and go out with friends.. may b a 6 o’clock show (I hate love stories – yeah although the reviews say that the movie sucks .. I’d still go.. cz the promos look nice) … OR may be I would get a comp for my client who is after me to get him a system…and I always turn him down cz I am busy working…. Today was a nice day to oblige him… Or if nothing else … I would take a nice nap till 7 and then watch the match …Argentina VS Germany!!!! but you see I am stuck here in the train, hoping to reach home in the first place..(leave aside enjoying the half day!!)

Some passengers traveling along with me in my compartment have already hopped out of the train and started walking along the tracks…seems like they’ll reach before me!! … but every time I think about following their footsteps this stupid train moves a little and then halts again crushing all my hopes!

I am bored!!!

I tried calling a few of my friends for time pass! But most of them are already happily sitting at home, have finished with their lunch and power nap and are enjoying sipping their tea at the moment!! … my ass was burning with jealousy so I disconnected the call :P called a few others who are stuck in the rains somewhere like me and felt better… on the other hand there are these bunch of people who are massaging – where have you reached? Had your lunch?? .. you know there is a high tide at 5….Sion station is totally flooded ! its on the news! … I went out for lunch you know :) ? .. do call me when you reach home!! - this does not make me feel any better .. infact it teases me more!!

Ufff!! Poor me! I had just 8 Parle G biscuits and a cup of milk for breakfast… :( I really hate the government for this! .. WTF! How can they let the trains and the commuters go for a toss like this every year??? Isn’t there a solution?? My pork is waiting for me at home and I am here sitting like a fool in this train totally hungry having no clue when this fucking train is going to move!

Speaking about the government… why the fuck is it declared Mumbai band on Monday?? Why are the taxi and auto drivers allowed to go on strike anytime out of the blue> taking the public for a long indefinite ride??? And if they go on strike why are their terms and conditions always accepted without strict action taken against them?? (which actually gives them the confidence to go on strike whenever they like without any fear) why does the common man have to suffer all the time because of the loose administration of our leaders? … every year there is a taxi, auto or BEST strike… every year there are floods in the monsoons (specially in the areas where the BMC boasts to have done a good job to take care of water logging and floods). ….

Its 4:44 and I have just moved 1 station ahead! …..

I cant write anymore… will plug in the earphones in my ears and listen to waka waka and dream about Shakira shaking everything she has .. :):)

PS:- I reached home at 6:15 (i.e: more than 3 hrs to reach marine lines from hiranandani ... i normally cover that distance in not more than 1 hr 15 mins)

Browserwala lafda!! :(

I have been blogging for quite some time now.. and have always done it using Mozila Firefox. Recently as I was going through my blog in office (where we use Internet Explorer) .. I've found out that my blogs dont appear the way I have written them in Firefox. This is not a miracle !! :).. its as normal thingy as different browsers have a list of different features and protocols... the only dissapointment is inspite of being in the IT field for many years Ive noticed this now :).. lol...

My recent posts - puppies show the first two pics together and the other two pics together fater a big gap in IE, where as i have posted all the four pics together with the same gap of space..

'On the ladies seat' which is another post of mine that has lots of smilies, reveal the repective HTML codes for every smilie.. :(.. (which is not the case in Firefox)...

Now the nightmare is i cant change/ correct either of them (i tried but ended up deleating the text and also messing the font up) nor i have the balls to inspect the other posts now as I am sure most of them will differ from the original (on firefox)...
So now the question is what to do now? ... :) ...
Answer: :) for now I request all my readers to use firefox ... lol .. untill i find a way to sort this yaar ;) ... dont worry, i surelly work something out :)..

please bear with me!! :)
:P

ofcourse if anyone of you has a solution to this plz let me know!!

puppies

HHmmm... As I was returning home from work today i came across these two little black puppies ... who looked really cute and very hungry (maybe i probably felt the latter cz I was hungry too ) ....

oh just realized my template matches ;)

tricky Questions !!

I am back with another Questionnaire to torture my poor handful readers!!
... my friend MD it seems was toying around with the best search engine in the world (google) and as always he came out with something hopeless (this Questionnaire) ... moreover like the best thing he could ever do in his entire life.. he forwarded this to 20 of his friends including me.
Now since I am really running short of ideas to blog, I've decided to oblige him by answering this one here!! ... and ofcourse as always I TAG - Julie and Runcil.

1. If love is blind, why is lingerie so popular?

Because Lust is not!!

2. When cheese gets its picture taken, what does it say?

Who cares!!

3. Why isn’t the number 11 pronounced onety one?

That sounds sad!!

4. If it’s true that we are here to help others, then what exactly are the others here for?

(Sadly) To tell us what are we here for!

5. If man evolved from monkeys and apes, why do we still have monkeys and apes?

Because some still love having sex on trees!

6. If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?

You’ve basically screwed up!

7. At a movie theater which arm rest is yours?

The one in between you and your girlfriend (or any hot chick for that matter)

8. If the FBI breaks your door down do they have to pay for it?

No. But if you ask them, they’ll make u ‘pay’ for it!

9. If pro and con are opposites, wouldn't the opposite of progress be congress?

It is … lol

10. Why is "bra" singular and "panties" plural?

To make her feel she’s wearing a little more.